Well, here I am... School has been consuming my life, and I really don't take the time I once did to do things like write. Which is odd, because I've found the time to play numerous games of solitaire and Bejeweled 3 lately... but I don't schedule myself; my life. Which I should. I wish I were more disciplined. If I could schedule school time, and me time, and house time, and husband time, I'm sure I would feel less frazzled. I'm in awe of people who can accomplish this... who can ensure that everything and everyone gets some time, nothing builds up to be overwhelming, and they themselves get productive time. I am a procrastinator. I'm trying not to be, but it's such an ingrained habit now... but I'm always kinda guilty about procrastinating, so I don't take useful time for myself (writing, painting, etc...), nope, I play solitaire. Then I haven't done what needs to get done, and I also haven't done anything really me, and I'm left tired and overwhelmed.
I would love to be writing again... and all the empty canvas in my spare room calls to me... and I've got 5 classes this semester (first really full course load since I started back), and I'm having trouble focusing. I like my classes. I just can't seem to care about them enough. I had a bad dream last night that I failed my Animal Physiology final. Not a good feeling. I've worked hard the past 3 semesters to get my GPA up... and now I'm scrambling in a couple of classes to keep from dropping my GPA right back down.
I am looking forward to this summer. Getting myself back on track. Visiting family on the island, seeing my nephews and my niece (hopefully) and hopefully also getting to the mountains this summer again. Need to get a good job for the summer to. I am hoping I can get something that pays well enough that we can have Ryan be able to change jobs this summer and do something that doesn't exhaust him so much and have him out of town so much. It would be nice to see him more. It's tough, being married but during the week living separate lives and being disconnected... then trying to integrate our lives in the short weekend, when we're tired. It's definitely a drain on us.
Hmmm.... guess what? I now drink more tea than I drink coffee! Crazy, huh? Yeah, it kinda just happened, or snuck up on me, or something... Starbucks had their "Tea Time" when tea lattes were 50% off, and my school's coffee started to taste gross (changed their supplier, etc) and so I had some black tea, and realized that tea is good. I usually before was never much of a tea drinker. Didn't really like the stuff. Now I love a good rich black tea, or a chai latte... I think the Rutherford Teahouse helped with my tea thing too... I took my sister-in-law Beth there before she left for England with my brother, and we had a delightful black tea and finished off the 2 pots... yummy. And we went there because I had a groupon coupon for there too. I love groupon, and all those other deal things... you can occasionally get some awesome, useful deals :D So yeah, I'm a tea drinker now... but still won't touch green tea. Sorry, but it still reminds me of either boiled green vegetable water or boiled hay/foliage water... blech. Just not my cup of tea... hehehe. Like white tea, love black tea... maybe I'll be brave and try rooibus or whatever it's called, when I'm out at the coast, but I don't think I'll ever like green tea.
I love my kitties, they are a blessing to me, keeping me company and giving me snuggles. I miss Donovan and Beth but I am glad they are having this adventure of theirs :) I love my family, near and far, immediate and extended. My husband is a blessing to me too, working hard to support me in school, helping out when he's home even though he's tired, calling every day to see how I'm doing :) I can't wait till he's home this weekend. Looking forward to seeing a movie maybe, going to a dance performance (mixing school and a date), and just hanging out. Maybe playing a game with Colevin and Ebony.
Well, there's my catharsis entry. Maybe next time I'll be more interesting and less blah, blah, blah, and whiny... :)
At least I took the time to sit down a write this... though I must admit there were about 5 games of solitaire interspersed in between writing... *gasp*
Yeah, yeah.
Anyhow, hey, look, a post! Going to try to go for more than 1 post a year, really I am.
